Had someone told me during all of those years that I spent being my own selfish self that I would love a baby as much as I love you, I probably would have laughed them off. If I could have felt even a tenth of that love, like watching a preview for a fantastic movie, I might have called all my own selfishness off and gone ahead with The Parent Agenda a bit too soon.
I don’t regret having gotten around to my parent agenda a bit late in the game. I got to spend many years becoming my own person, operating by my own whim, and cultivating my own character. That’s a pretty awesome thing and I consider myself very fortunate to live in a modern age where women even have the option of becoming 100% of their possibility before offering some of that possibility up to the whim of a little baby.
Now that you are here, while I look back on the years before you with some nostalgia, I would never go back to a time when you weren’t a part of my life. Rather, I want to take every magical thing that I learned during my time before you and show you just how wonderful life can be.
I hope that you have all the opportunities that I did, and more. I want to help you feel free enough to experience every emotion, free to trod down any path, and free enough to try your hand at any craft that will help you develop your own special brand of person.
I spent a lot of time getting to know myself, but it wasn’t until I started getting to know you that I felt all of my experiences close in full circle. The best way I know how to thank you for that is to be the best parent I can possibly be for you. I probably wouldn’t have been able to be that parent if you had come into my life a decade sooner.
I’m glad we both waited. I’m glad you’re here now. I know that I’m happy. So far, you seem pretty happy, too.